I'll Just Leave This Here...

Jess and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary this year (February 8). We want to buy new rings and renew our vows next year. I'm hoping we can pull it off.

An update...

So... I've been back to losing weight for a month now and I've shed over 10 lbs. Unfortunately, it's 10 lbs I'd already lost, once, but I'm down from 330 to 318 so I'm moving in the right direction. I recently read the book An End to Overeating by Dr. David Kessler and it was a real eye opener concerning why many of us overeat.

And, speaking of eyes, I had an appointment with my eye doctor today to check my glaucoma which is still running rampant at a pressure of 30 in my left eye (it should be around 20) and he says that if it doesn't come down with medication in the next month, I'm in for more eye surgery.

Physical health aside, my mental health is of a questionable nature right now as my ADHD daughter is driving me insane. Everything is a fight and a tantrum and I'm at my wit's end. We've got her on medication and in counseling and none of it seems to be working... I mean, the medication makes a difference, but it doesn't seem like enough...

I'm still unemployed so that's not helping me, mentally, either. I'm stressed and depressed and frazzled. I am continuing my pro bono stuff, though, hoping that I can add it to my resume and improve my chances of getting a decent job.

So, anyway, that's all for now.

I’m Over It...

I've had it with my daughter.

She lies, she disobeys, she misbehaves in school constantly.

She flushes her medicine down the toilet.

She acts like she's sorry and goes right back to the same s*** the next day.

I don't know what to do anymore. No one has been able to help.

I'm about to put her in an institution before I end up in one myself.

(In the fashion of 'The Price is Right') A New Car!!!

Anyway... As you can guess from the title, I finally broke down and bought a new car today. My Buick has been having death throws lately and I didn't know how much longer it would last so I figured that if I could find a car I liked that I could afford I would go ahead and buy it. Well... I found a car I liked, at least... LOL

I'm only paying 8k for it, but making that payment is going to be tough for me right now. Still, I'm quite pleased with the price and I love the car and Jess and Goobus like it too, so I can't say that it's a bad thing.

On another note, I had a most wonderful day with my wife and daughter after we made it out of the car dealership. I took the family to the park and watched my daughter play for awhile and then we went driving to my mom's house to show off the new car and then to some friends' for the same reason. The only downside was my daughter whining about everything she could possibly think of but, hey... what are kids for? LOL

Anyway, I have schoolwork I need to do and sleep I need to get before I head out to work tomorrow so I'm ending this now before I ramble on more about my sweet new ride!! LOL

Good night.

I think I need help dealing...

**DISCLAIMER**
Since I know you will read this, my love, don't get angry. I'm just venting my frustrations because that's what blogs are for. ;-). That goes for anyone else that happens to be the subject matter of one of my posts, too. This is just me venting so don't take offense.
**END DISCLAIMER**

So... It has been seven days since my wife and I discussed the fact that she was planning on divorcing me and seven days since we agreed to work things out and get back to being a happy couple I'm pleased to say that things have been going well. However, I've had to work the last few days so I haven't seen much of her. I planned on having a nice, enjoyable day with her today, being that it is one of only two days off that I'm getting this week, but instead I spent most of the day arguing with my daughter about her responsibilities while my wife slept the day away.

Now I know that this seems like a stupid thing to be bothered by but when I'm expected to (and willing to and wanting to) make time to spend with her and want nothing more then to do just that, this kind of thing just hurts me on some deep, emotional level.

On top of that, my mother called me today with 'some horrible news' that I 'needed to be prepared for'.... Apparently, she had talked to my Aunt... Jess had talked to my Aunt about all of this stuff a few weeks ago and asked her to keep it confidential, but as I explained to Jess, I would never expect a family member of the other party to be able to hold up to that, and my Aunt apparently told my Mom all about it. So anyway... Mom is freaking out and telling me how Jess is going to leave me and how she's having a relationship with someone online and having cybersex with him and calling him on the phone. Of course, Jess has already told me all of this (although I thought it was only once that she had cybersex with him), but hearing it from my mother was like getting a knife in the eyball and it brought it all back up to the surface... *sighs*

Anyway... that's all the venting I'm going to do for now. Getting it out has made me feel a little better, though I'm still having a tough time with the fact that Jess was, more or less, cheating on me. I wish that she had told me that there was a problem before she took that route... Alas! It is over and done with now and I will just continue to be there for her and work through my emotions. I'm going to go cuddle with her for a few moments before I pass out.

My Daughter the Brat...

I'm at my wit's end with my daughter... No matter what Jess and I do, she will not listen. I've tried being sugary sweet and lemony sour and nothing seems to get through to her.

The current situation is this: For the last two weeks, we have been telling her to clean her room and she just completely refuses to do so. I've tried taking away privelages.. In fact, she's completely out of privileges at the moment. I've grounded her to her room, she just ignores that and comes out anyway. I've taken away her radio and she continues to disobey. She continuosly tells us no and throws fits... I just don't know what to do...